Frozen.Oranges

Treatment was a large portion of my college education. It is not something that you leave behind with discharge and just continue on with your life and forget about it. They are life lessons that everyone should have to learn at some point or another, but some of us just had to learn it the hard way.

Having been out of treatment for almost 2.5 years, I don’t really catch it anymore, but every now and then I’ll realize that something I’m thinking, doing or (most importantly) eating is only happening because of my treatment.

Because … Continue Reading

If our history goes this far back, you will remember my blog started on Blogger at emsr.blogspot.com under the name “Closer to Fine”.

A few months ago, I decided to revive this blog for all of my more regular, every day type postings. What I’m doing now, what my goals are, work, school, etc. I now have the feed on the right side of F.O with the most recent entry so you can have easy access to both (if you’re interested).

I will still be writing in Frozen.Oranges with anything (post-)recovery and … Continue Reading

As you may know if you’ve been reading my blog for a while, my mom is all up in the world of motivational speakers. Two of her favorites are Dr. Wayne Dyer and Byron Katie. I’ve referred to Byron Katie before, but now I have to hand it to my mom for Wayne Dyer.

The Law of Attraction and Power of Intention was a bit much for me at first. I get all kinds of clippings from these two – via my mom – and it’s not really the angle I often take on … Continue Reading

Even my own, apparently.

I’ve been talking to a friend – a writer – about my struggle with writing my memoir a lot lately. It’s something I’ve always wanted to do and definitely in the past couple years. I just can’t figure out why I struggle with it so much when it’s something I want to do so badly. Or, I couldn’t. She made a really good point.

It’s difficult to write about something that bores you and, apparently, I’m bored by my own story now. I’ve told it so many times, I’ve already written it … Continue Reading

Fat, sodium, sugar, who cared? Whatever went in my mouth, it had calories and no one cared about anything but that. I was even allowed to lower my vegetable and fruit intake when I hit Partial because it was nothing more than filling and taking up room where I could be putting in substances more saturated with calories. When I began enjoying food again, I was totally cool with this. Too many cookies? Pssht. No such thing, as long as I was getting in my calories.

I have been out of treatment for two years, I have … Continue Reading

There’s a song I used to listen to a lot and had posted to my blog more than once. It was called “Be My Escape” by Relient K. I would try to pick the most appropriate quote from the song to post, but ended up copy and pasting the entirety of the lyrics. It was all just summed up in that song. It was perfect.

I’m giving up on doing this alone now
Cause I’ve failed and I’m ready to be shown how
He’s told me the way and I’m trying to get there
And this life sentence that … Continue Reading

I’m what some would call an “emo” kid. I was much more so in high school, but there’s still a piece of me in there. Often, they are characterized as black eyeliner, black clothing, Hot Topic-style, known for saying things about black souls and crimson tears and are often assumed to be *cringe* cutters. Not that I can deny that last part, but it seems to be over-generalized and seen as simply an act of looking for attention or a trend by that stereotype. Myth.

Yes, this was me in high school: blasting Linkin Park, crying to … Continue Reading

I am currently on vacation and have decided to stick with my personal blog for the week.

You can find me here: http://emsr.blogspot.com/

Will return 3/17/10. And what a beautiful day to return to Boston.

I am a member of the TWLOHA Street Team.

As part of my membership, I am required to complete “orders” that help promote the organization in order to remain a member. One of the orders I decided to accept today is one that anyone can do and I thought there may be some people in this blogging community that would enjoy the opportunity to lift someone’s spirits. You don’t have to be a Street Team member or even be someone who has experienced treatment first hand.

The order is as follows:

We believe in words, … Continue Reading